I haven’t written since Wednesday. I had a big long post drafted but there was nothing in it I want to make public so it’s gone. I feel rotten tonight. I’m scared of my folks going home, of my safety net being gone, and I’m scared of the week ahead. Mostly I feel like this shitty little character on the right:

I should go to bed. I have to try and function in work tomorrow.

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  1. Hang in there! I am just reading all of your posts and I wanted to say thank u. I have someone I love very much battling with depression and they have been blaming me and shutting me out. I am trying to learn as much as I can. Reading your blog has been a big help. On the other side of this it's hard to understand even when we empathize. I'm pulling for u and I want u to know that u have helped me see the other side of this. My loved one is unable to explain at the moment.

    1. I am so, so glad that reading this has helped you. I know Hubby has often struggled to understand, he still does, despite years of talking about it and more recently writing about it. It's something we still struggle with when things are bad. All you can do is listen when they're ready, step back when it's too much for you, and try (so hard I know) to not take it personally. Have you seen Hubby's post? It might be useful for you – http://sunnyspellsandscatteredshowers.blogspot.ie/p/for-partners_23.html

      Also I've just discovered this talk, it's incredible and makes so much sense to me as someone living with depression, so it might be helpful for you too in trying to help your loved one – http://www.ted.com/talks/andrew_solomon_depression_the_secret_we_share

      Good luck x

  2. Thank u very much! That video was amazing. And your words of kindness has helped me greatly. Thank you for reminding me to try and not take it personal. It's been very hard and I've made many mistakes. I do hope that my loved one knows how much I care and how much I'm trying to be there. At this point I've been kind of shut out. But I am not giving up hope and I refuse to take it personally! Thank u again!

    I read your husbands post and it helped so much! You guys are doing a great job and I hope I know there are people on this side that want to help in whatever way possible. U and ur husband are strong people. I work in the medical field and I am
    A big advocate for mental health. It is awful for the sufferer as well as those closest! U are doing something great with this blog! Let's fight back against the stigma! 🙂 I can only imagine how hard it is to share sometimes but this website will help so many people!
    You are a strong person! I'm pulling for u and your family.

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