Friend or foe?

Depression is hard, that’s not up for debate. No one would willingly make themselves feel so bad. But, is there another way of looking at it? Could it actually be looked at as a friend? Albeit one who can be a little harsh at times. For me, depression tends to come on when I’m pushing too hard, when I’m too caught up in what’s going on around me to take…

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The bubble

For me, as I’m sure for anyone else who has experienced a depressive episode, there are varying levels of bad. As a good friend once put it – ‘are ya bad, or are ya bad bad?’ (Thank you good friend, you know who you are and I miss you!!) And I knew exactly what she meant. Today I’m going to do bad bad, the place I was just before I…

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When the clouds lift

I think there’s a danger in writing a blog like this that it could become all too easy to focus on the negative. Depression is a difficult illness, that’s not in question. But, and this is so important to remember (I’m writing this to remind myself as much as anyone else), it doesn’t last forever. I’m going to say that again. It doesn’t last forever. Episodes come on, they’re horrible,…

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Acceptance

Among the many different and difficult challenges brought on by depression, is the challenge of acceptance. I struggled with this, quite literally, for years. No matter how many times I was told, no matter who told me, (among them quite a few people who know a whole lot more about the nature of depression than I do) I refused to accept that I had depression. I trotted out every excuse…

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Mind reading

One of the many, many joys of depression is that it often goes hand in hand with anxiety. As someone once put it to me, they’re two sides of the same coin. Me, well I guess I’m just lucky in that I get to experience both sides of this coin. While this blog is primarily about dealing with depression, for me anxiety has also played a huge part in that….

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What’s in a name?

I thought long and hard about the name for this blog. I wanted it to reflect where I’m at, as well as the nature of depression. I wanted it to be catchy. This blog is deeply personal for me, but I’m hopeful that it will also strike a chord with folk who may stumble across it. So it went through a few permutations. I started simple – Living with Depression….

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Wow

Today is the first day in my life as a blogger, and I have to say, I am completely overwhelmed by the veritable flood of positivity that is coming my way, I have literally not stopped smiling since I got up. And for someone with depression, this is a serious achievement!! It just goes to show how willing people are to do something to help, even if it’s something as…

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A leap of faith

So I’ve been thinking about starting this blog for at least the last two years, and have come up with many and varying reasons as to why I shouldn’t. I’m embarrassed. I’m ashamed. I’ve brought this on myself. I don’t want anyone to know. Why can’t I just cop on to myself and cheer up? Who would would want to read it? Depression isn’t really an illness……. I could keep…

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