Dip

I’ve been loath to post the last few days. My mood has dipped. I didn’t want to post because I want to be positive, or insightful, or in some way show you all that there’s still calm after the storm. But I can’t do that right now. So today I’m going to just write to clear my head, and hopefully help lift myself out of this dip if I can….

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On being the source of the fallout

The last couple of days have been tough. I’ve been low, anxious, extremely irritable and have found my thoughts heading down a path that I’d hoped to leave firmly in the past. I’ve blamed the weather (for those lucky enough to live in a country with a normal climate, we’ve gone from fabulous summer to monsoon rain to mid spring and back to winter in the space of a week)….

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On being caught in the fallout

I asked Hubby to write a post for me, on what it’s like living with someone who has depression. It was extremely hard for him to write this, it took strength and courage, and required him to think a lot about a time he’d much rather forget. I’m so grateful to him for doing this. He’s living with depression as much as I am, and I think it’s really important…

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Rant

Today I need to rant. Read it, ignore it, up to you!! I’m pissed off, and I’m upset. As you know, I’m back to work, although at the moment I’m just putting my foot in the door – 2 days a week for the next couple of weeks and then back to full time. I’m dreading full time, absolutely dreading it, for so many reasons! I guess the biggest one…

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Medication

I asked blog readers what they would like me write about, and a few expessed interest in hearing about medication. Seems timely to think about it today following on from yesterday’s blip! First things first, I’d like to reiterate that I’m not an expert – my experience is my own and that’s my only point of reference. Different things work for different people, I can only say with certainty what has and hasn’t…

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Whitewash

As always, my last session with Therapist has left me with something to think about, which I guess is the point of therapy! Anyway, we were talking about my recovery activity of choice, namely painting. Not painting in the artistic sense of the word, but diy. When I was getting over last year’s episode I redid my kitchen and two bedrooms, this year I took on the hall, stairs and…

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What more can I do?

I realised something this evening. I know I’ve mentioned a few times now on facebook how I feel that this whole exercise has become something bigger than me, that it’s not just about me anymore. I can’t quite get my head around the fact that people are reading what I’ve written, never mind having an active interest in it or recognising exactly what I’m talking about. I’m amazed by how many…

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Tired and emotional

Those of you who are keeping up with me on Facebook know I’ve been feeling a tad emotional the last few days. Those of you who aren’t…….well, now you know! I’m putting it down to my imminent return to work, and everything that’s going with that. I haven’t worked for 4 months. I was also off last year, again due to depression, for 4 months. In between I worked, on…

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‘Marketing’ depression

So this one might be a little contentious, but hey, I want us to talk so I’m going to throw it out there. I had a really interesting conversation with Therapist yesterday about how depression is marketed, for want of a better word, ie, the language we use to talk about it. I’ve always had an issue with the term ‘I suffer from depression’. Therapist challenged me on this. Why?…

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