Parts of me

  I feel like I’m losing my mind, I certainly can’t see the wood for the trees right now. There’s an anger bubbling away in the pit of my stomach that’s threatening to boil over at the slightest provocation. A few weeks ago, Therapist 2.0 had me think about a particular situation from the perspective of the different parts of me, which meant in the first instance I had to…

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Equine therapy

I don’t know where to start. Back during the summer, a group in Galway called Horses Connect got in touch and asked me if I’d like to meet to see what equine therapy is all about. Between one thing and another I never got round to it, until this morning. I hadn’t much idea what it was about and really didn’t know what to expect, but never in a million years…

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An ideal world?

I think I’m having a fairly serious identity crisis at the moment. Everything that I talked about with Therapist 2.0 on Monday is rolling around at the back of my head. I’m just off the phone from a spectacular meltdown with Hubby because I’m questioning absolutely everything – my motivation, conscious and otherwise, my beliefs about myself, about what I’m doing with my life, where I’m going with it, where…

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Comfort zone

I don’t know where to start. There’s so much swimming around my head that I want and need to make sense of, but I’ve come up against a fairly significant problem with writing. I work my thoughts out most effectively when I write, more specifically, when I write for the blog. If I write just for me, I can’t seem to make as much sense of it, I guess because…

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Clarity

I haven’t written anything in almost a month. Part of it has been time commitments, part of it has been actively, albeit subconsciously, putting everything and everyone else first. The old guilt that I had started to get a handle on around my kids – am I doing enough/too much/not enough etc etc – has been rearing its head again in a big way, and when that takes hold it’s…

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Guest post – Dialectics

Lucie, Square One Exactly a year ago, I was all excited leaving my DBT Skills Group.  I was on my way to collect a puppy.  That same puppy is lying at my feet as I write this just hours after finishing my final Skills Group.  That day, I wasn’t long into DBT.  I was still working full time, feeling “fine” about it all, struggling a little to make sense of…

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Just one thing

I’m starting to get myself back on track, so I suspect there was actually some fallout from the med reduction a few weeks back. My mood is definitely improving, and I don’t have the bone crushing tiredness that was tormenting me for a while. That said, I’ve also been working really bloody hard to keep myself in a reasonable frame of mind! I’m back doing my yoga. Hubby started me…

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A change of plan

I was due to see Therapist 2.0 this morning, and just as I was on my way out the door I got a call cancelling the session. My reaction to that cancellation is helping me to see just how much things are changing. In the six years that I was working with Therapist 1.0, I think she only ever cancelled on me once (which is pretty impressive in its own…

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Extremes

I’m sitting here this morning feeling anxious and low and depressed and trying to breathe into it like Therapist 2.0 suggested. It sucks. It feels horrible. My mind is coming up with a million and one other things I could/should be doing right now, all of which are extremely worthy and all of which will distract me from how I’m feeling. So this is the part where I’m confused –…

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