Today is not good. My concentration is shot to bits, I can’t focus on anything. I have a knot in my stomach that’s making me feel sick and it feels as though there’s a physical weight pressing down on my chest. I’m having to remind myself not to hold my breath. I’m doing everything I should be doing. I got up this morning for my yoga, I’m walking, I followed through with Therapist yesterday, I’m taking my medication………….but something isn’t right. I’m on edge, I nearly leapt out of my seat when I saw something move unexpectedly out of the corner of my eye. I’d rather be alone than talk to anyone, and suspect if left alone I would spend a lot of time staring at nothing. I feel incredibly guilty about a variety of things, non of which are worth mentioning other than to say there’s a lot of unnecessary guilt going on. I feel very self conscious. All of this together? Bleugh.Just bleugh. Only worse.
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