It’s official. Dbt is not going ahead, and it all comes down to resources. I don’t know where to begin to describe how I feel right now, the words I have aren’t big enough. Angry, disappointed, let down – they don’t come close. I’m in ribbons.
I knew this was coming, but I still can’t quite believe it. I’ve waited 8 months. I’ve been told time and again that this is the best thing for me, the only thing that really helps with bpd. To have that hope taken away at the 11th hour is beyond cruel. I realise that this is not my psychiatrist’s fault, and I do genuinely believe that she has done everything in her power to make this happen for me, but right now, that does nothing to change the fact that I’m further than I’ve ever been from getting the help I need.
I have no words.