I find goodbyes really, really hard, and I know I’m not alone in that. I just said goodbye to a very close friend, she’s moving back to the States this week. I know that this is the right move for her, I know how well it will go and I’m so happy for her that things have come together the way they have. But my god am I going to miss her! I’m not the easiest person to get on with, I know this. I don’t often meet people I click with, who I’m at ease with, people who get me without me having to say anything. She gets me. I get her. I’ve always known I can call her in a crisis, and at times she has quite literally come running when I needed her. I feel so incredibly privileged to have had her in my life, and she’s going to leave a gap that won’t be filled. I know we’ll stay in touch, I know we’ll still talk, but it won’t be the same. No more sneaky pints on a school night!
I’m not really able to take it in just yet, exactly what this all means. It’s too big, and I’m not ready to feel all of it. What I’m feeling right now is more than enough. The hardest part of having people we love in our lives is when the time comes to let go.
I’m going to miss you so much E