‘Battling’ our minds

‘Battling mental illness’ ‘Fighting my demons’ ‘To anyone suffering with mental illness – you are one badass motherfucker because nothing is more terrifying than battling with your own mind every single day’ ENOUGH!!!!!!!! Can we please, please think about changing the language a little? It doesn’t need to be a battle, there’s no need for demons, or terror, or constant fighting. I get that that’s what it feels like, I…

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What I have, or what I want?

Autumn is far and away my favourite season of the year. I love the colours, I love the crisp, sunny days when you can feel a hint of the cold weather to come, I even love the wind and the rain. You can’t beat walking in a good storm. I don’t expect anything of Autumn, it is what it is. Spring brings the promise of longer evenings, new growth, blue…

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Potential

‘Since waking up to my lifelong habit of always rushing to the next thing, and experiencing the difference that slowing down has made to my emotional well being, I’m able to think so much more clearly.’ I wrote the above 2 weeks ago, and haven’t written anything since. In the interim, the kids have gone back to school, we had a weekend of sugar fuelled 7 year old birthday madness…

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From tiny acorns………

My brain is working in the most curious way at the moment. Lots of unusual little thoughts are coming to mind, and I’m getting inspiration for writing from the most unexpected places. This post for example, has been rolling around the back of my mind since yesterday morning. I went out early for my walk/sit (still marvelling at the wonder of the difference this makes to my frame of mind),…

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Observations

I have a spot under a tree by the river where I love to just sit, listen to the water and let my mind wander. I’ve been going there every day that I can for the last few months and it never fails to make me calm, the longer I sit the better. I noticed something yesterday. But first, I need to go off on a bit of a tangent (it’ll…

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Go placidly

‘Go placidly amid the noise and haste, and remember what peace there may be in silence’ Desiderata The full text of this is hanging on my kitchen wall in the most prominent place I could find, to serve as a reminder of what is most important. Every single line of this beautiful poem carries so much weight, and so much meaning. Depending on circumstances on any given day a different…

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Martyrdom

The best way for me to think is to write. I know this, I’ve known this for a long, long time. I’ve had so much to think about the last few months, and yet I’ve written virtually nothing. Maybe it’s because I have nothing earth shattering to share, so it doesn’t seem worthwhile. For a while there I was making huge leaps almost on a weekly basis, and those leaps…

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Being, not doing

  I’ve been thinking about getting back to writing for months, but something always gets in the way. Life has thrown some spectacular curve balls my way over the last few months, and it came to a head in recent weeks with the most serious dip in mood I’ve had in a long time. It was bad enough that I went to my GP to beg for emergency meds, and…

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Transformation

You may have noticed I’ve been a little quiet this last couple of months. It didn’t happen intentionally, there was no great decision to stop writing, no knee jerk reaction to anything. It just sort of happened. I find I’m in a really good space right now – I’m managing difficulties as they arise, I’m continuing to reduce meds, and as of a few weeks ago, I’m also finished with…

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