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HSE complaint and response

Back in April I sent the below complaint regarding the debacle that was the HSE DBT programme to Your Service, Your Say. I got a reply earlier this month (after the deadline had passed and only after I asked for an update). I’m not going to transcribe it in full, but I’ll give you the key points. Considering I would never have accessed treatment were it not for your kindness…

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Patience

I feel flat and horrible and so unbelievably weighed down this morning. My homework from Therapist 2.0 this week was to practice patience with myself, and think about what that might look like. Problem is of course that when I feel like this my ability to be compassionate with myself goes straight out the window, and evidently patience goes with it too. I’ve looked at my WRAP and decided I’ve…

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Summer WRAP

I’m feeling like I’m floundering out of my depth right now and it’s bugging the hell out of me. I’m really struggling with the concepts of personal responsibility and patience – that ultimately it’s up to me to do what needs doing to keep myself well, and to be patient with myself in the process. I get it, but bloody hell do I resent it sometimes, and today is one…

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Making friends with the crazy

This post has come about off the back of a conversation I had with a close friend who had been struggling to know how to react to me at times, or understand why I was behaving in certain ways. I’m so proud of her for having the strength to bring this up with me because it was never going to be an easy conversation, but it was one that had to…

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Triggers and WRAP

I looked at my WRAP this morning and noticed something missing – one of my biggest triggers. I have a lengthy list, we already know that, so what’s one more? It’s a doozie, and one that is guaranteed to send me into a tailspin – believing I’ve pissed someone off. I cannot stand to think that someone is angry with me, it makes me sick to my stomach. I will…

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How’s my tent looking?

I was quietly apprehensive going into my session with Therapist 2.0 this morning given how tough it was last week and how volatile my mood has been since. The first few minutes were always something I found really challenging with Therapist 1.0, I never knew where to begin, despite the fact that every week of the six years I was with her she opened the session by asking what I would…

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Time delay

Yesterday was the toughest day I’ve had in a while, my ability to function at any kind of acceptable level was severely compromised and Hubby had to step in and take over for a few hours. I felt so raw after yesterday’s session with Therapist 2.0, I just wanted yesterday to be over (not in the suicidal sense, but in the please let me go to sleep now sense). Self…

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Self compassion

I had a session with Therapist 2.0 earlier today and recorded this video as soon as I got back to the car. Right now I’m not sure why, but at the time it seemed really important. I think it was that I wanted to show you how physically and mentally draining a tough session can be. I thought about not posting it because I don’t want to scare people away…

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Fighting urges

I’ve had a whole entire 24 hours to myself, Hubby and the kids went to Kildare for the night. It’s been awesome. I got to catch up on mail that I had let build up for way too long, I’ve walked, I’ve done yoga, I’ve fed myself properly – all good. A few mails that I replied to had been asking me about attachment issues with Therapist 1.0 – how I…

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